January 2010
15 posts
I go back & forth
between my personal tumblr and this tumblr. I feel like a lie. I’m one person in one tumblr & another on this tumblr, but both people are me. I just hate that I have to keep them seperate. That people on my personal tumblr can’t understand what I’m going through on this tumblr. That they just can’t understand and maybe even help me through it. Life would be so much...
drunk eating is my weakeness.
featherylight:
impossiblebones:
featherylight:
I’m starting to sober up.
Shit. Maybe I should stay drunk forever so I wouldn’t have to see my enourmous legs.
Efffffffffff.
you drink for that too? someone was asking me last night “why do you drink? you dont need it” I couldn’t tell them I have an eating disorder, so he’ll continue to frown upon my drinking. I wish I could tell people the...
I hate food. I hate being fat. I hate looking in the mirror. I hate hiding from people. I hate naturally skinny people. I hate lying about it. I hate being troubled. I hate that I care so much. I hate that others dont care. I hate waiting. I hate my body.
drunk eating is my weakeness.
featherylight:
I’m starting to sober up.
Shit. Maybe I should stay drunk forever so I wouldn’t have to see my enourmous legs.
Efffffffffff.
you drink for that too? someone was asking me last night “why do you drink? you dont need it” I couldn’t tell them I have an eating disorder, so he’ll continue to frown upon my drinking. I wish I could tell people the real...
also,
I need my dance season to be done with so I can start a complete water fast. I’ve HAD to be eating. A girl last year who was anorexic fainted & that’s all it took.. the whole school found out, she was out of all her school activities and was hospitalized. So everyone’s really paranoid about people having EDs & I’m the one everyone’s looking out for to have one...
dear followers,
even though there aren’t many of you, thank you so much. I’ve been alone in this for so long, it’s been really rough. There’s no one I could tell or even hint it to, but I’ve needed someone to support me. so thank you so much, you all inspire me and keep me motivated[:
cutting back
cutting back & gonna start a fast soon. I’m sick today so I’ve eating fat free sorbet and eating popsicles. once I begin the fast I do a-okay it’s just beginning it thats so hard.
does anyone have any advice on the cutting back & beginning the fast to make it easier or what you do when beginning one?
"You cannot trick your body..."
twigsandleaves:
“…Your body, strange as it seems to we who are saturated with a doctrine of dualism, is actually attached to your brain. There is a very simple, inevitable thing that happens to a person who is dieting: When you are not eating enough, your thinking process changes. You begin to be obsessed with food.” -From the book Wasted.
It’s so true. My mind has become obsessed with food. ...
it hurts- angels & airwaves.
first blog
I’ve had a tumblr, I’ve had issues with my weight, I need a new form of thinspo, so I put these all together and made a tumblr just for this.
I’ve struggled with my weight for.. ever since I was little. It’s so hard for me to get away with starving myself because I’m so active, being on my school’s dance team, and choir and everything. I have very judgmental...